Miss Nangrai Little Diary

 Hey Diamond, I don't know, I am ar loser o what. Just now my friend tells me that another friend gonna start working this Sunday. and I don't know why I feel shocked about it. Usually, I'm soo happy if my friends tell me that they gonna start to work but now my self is shaking. I feel that I'm just a loser girl who doesn't have anything to be proud of. didn't have any job, can't do anything just laying in the house doing nothing. I feel hopeless right now. Oh God... what happened to me? I feel like I did not have any luck at all. what should I do have a chance to do a part-time job but it has just been blown away by "someone" and when I'm thinking about it, it just makes me cry, just like now. I don't know... should I just die? every day I'm just thinking... " aku ni tengah tunggu apa sebenarnya?" kerja? convo? sambung belajar? right now, I feel like I didn't have any plan for my future, any aim, anything... nol, zero... ...

 Hey Diamonds! Officially 24 today... ohmyyyyy😜 tak tua dan tak muda tapi yang pasti semakin dekat dengan kematian... Ohya for this time, tak tahu la this is the best birthday ever or beshe beshe je... I feel happy of course but at the same time I feel empty... don't know why... So yeah that's it for this entry... hahahahahah no lah but yeah take tahu nak write about what... Oh yaa,  For this year dapat banyak wishes as always and I think this time the theme is "CAKE" why? because dari petang semalam orang hantar kek... Takde la sepanjang harini orang hantar kek but yeah tadi petang pon dapat kek jugak. U know, that bento kek yang cute-cute tu... haa kek tu laa.. Comey rupanya kek tu yerr... hahahahha I like it... Thanks kepada sang pemberi yang budiman, dermawan lagi hartawan tu yerr... Nasib dihantarnya kek bento tu, mau kalau kek yang normal size tu dahh pening kepala aku nak menyimpan dalam peti tu hah... Tapi kalau dapat kek gitu memang cite dia pakat sedekah sa...

 Hey Brilliant, Its already 2022, ingat lagi dulu masa nak masuk 2021... telling myself that aku takkan sambut apa-apa special occassion like my birthday, raya ect but end up Tuhan kurniakan sekeliling yang would make me celebrate it... Even I would celebrate it myself as an example when I got a good result I would make sure I give something for myself as a reward for my hard work... Every single thing I make sure to make is a memory. This year... new age new year new me... insyaAllah... Trying to be a better person but yeah I don't know I can make it or not. But always pray for myself to be better every single day. Eventho sometimes ada je benda yang menyebalkan dari si nenek sihir tu... hahahahahhahha as in tadi laa ada benda ehhh kerjanya nak mengungkit je... bole mati kot kalau tak mengungkit.. eh jap bukan tadi nak jadi better person ke? ni dah kenapa duk mengutuk pulak? hahahahaha si nenek sihir pulak tu kau kutuk... tempah neraka sungguh! BTW tak tau la ni new resolution ke ...